don't read -it's just a rant

I know this is my first post for the new year and I'm going to rant, so if you do not want to read negative thoughts and negative feelings I would understand, I just want to let this feelings OUT.

Everyone seems to be excited for the new year and I "was" but now that it's already 5th of January and that we still do not have a home to moved to and that we only have 10 days left in our current home, I'm beginning to hate the new year. The pressure is taking toll on me and I snapped last night (thank God for giving me such a kind husband to take all what I do and say specially in times that I release all the frustrations and stress)

And the thought that none of whom I expect to help me in time of distress is helping- I even think that no one is praying for us anymore, that I have to beg friends to pray for us.It's very dis appointing because I know I can say this loud and clear that I have helped THEM ALL in many other ways (big or small) sometimes I even do more than what is asked of me. But of course..that's my fault...

nakaka dis appoint na alam ng marami na naghahanap kami ng house..at alam din nila na medyo nahihirapan kami lalo na I only have few hours na pwedeng gamitin in a day..pero lahat sila ang sinasabi lang
"doon..madami kayo makikita".."sa bandang ganito..madami" but none offered to really help..yun bang..sana sabihin man lang..sige, may libre akong oras..tulungan ko kayo mag ikot at maghanap...

but then again, they have no obligations to us naman-that I know very much. I was just thinking na friends ought to help each other right? but now I think otherwise..not all friends think that way..sad to say but true.

Anyways, I'm going out early today from the office to again look for a house, if we still don't find one..maybe I'll start packing things and selling our stuff and just go home to the province.

Sorry for the rant....