Randomness

Hi there!

August is about to end again and I'm only on my 2nd post for the  month. Not good. :( well, for a blogger, the usual reason could be any of the following;  1. offline life is  busy so there is no time left to go online and write about what's happening;  2. there isn't much happening (at least something that is interesting to write about) 3. No internet access 4. OR maybe just plain lazy.

For me, I got all of them. hehe.

My husband and I are busy and always tired that even our laundry is now the same height of the tallest mountain in the Philippines (exaggerating of course but yes, we can't even find time for it)

It is so hard to juggle a lot of stuff in your hands. I am so looking forward to days when we can give up one or two and have leisure time for ourselves. 

Ministry/church work are mostly taking our time BUT we are enjoying this and for sure we will not give this up. It is our passion and this is where we see ourselves in the near future.

There is actually a lot less pressure now in my job and so with my husband and I am thankful for that-because it gave us more time for the ministry works. Great timing I can say.

It's Friday and it's a long weekend here in my world as on Monday is our National Heroes Day. 

So maybe we can do our laundry on Monday...:) Gosh..why am I even blogging about our laundry? haha! I'm weird.

Anyways, how's everyone? I hope you are all doing fine.

Stress Overload

Because I think I have too much on my hand right now. 

Putting up that small food business (even how small it is) is eating up a lot of our time and energy. Not that I am complaining because I know we need to do that but my body is already giving up. 

This year, I’ve pushed myself so far, beyond its limit I guess and now I need to stop and rest and recuperate. 

I had my CBC (Complete Blood Count) done last Friday because I’ve been feeling so weak , I know something is wrong- and knowing that I have history of severe anemia, I had to do that test. Got the result yesterday and I was right, everything looks bad (though I have yet to consult a doctor-to which I am always postponing because of schedules and money concerns..sigh ) 

My RBC (Red Blood cells) significantly went down, as well as my hemoglobin and hematocrit. My WBC (White blood cells) is quite high which is also very unusual. 

I know I have to do something about this because I need energy to do all the things that I do. You know, I say this often “I can’t get sick” but to not get sick I need to rest and take care of myself better. But how oh how can I rest? Even my weekends are not free anymore :(

Very random post

I know it's been forever since my last post :( life has been extraordinary busy this last few weeks and I'm still swamped with work now that I am back to office after a long leave of absence.

Plus it doesn't help that I was ill the day we got back from Cebu and that illness lasted for three days.

I sorely miss my Nanay now because I wasn't able to go home during the long holiday, I called up and all my nieces and nephews are there. Sigh.

Out trip to Cebu (Youth Mission Camp) was a success. It was hard work but it's all worth it. We met a lot of new friends specially my husband who made friends with a group of musicians from there. Now they're like real buddies making phone calls and chit chatting. :) And they're planning to visit us here too! 

We are planning a new small business venture with another friend and a cousin. This time a food business. I can't tell the details yet but we are hoping to have it up and running next month. Small it may be for the beginning but we are thinking BIG. Someday soon it will happen. Someday soon I will stop being employee and will focus on our own business. It's not too late to dream big.

I told you..it's such a random post.  But anyways, I hope you all had a good lenten holiday :)

God bless!

Hello Good News

"selfie with one of her favorite apo"

Just got back from the province this morning, finally after more than two weeks, I was able to visit Mom again. It was a holiday yesterday and I took the opportunity to go home and visit her just in time before we go to Cebu this weekend.

And yes, I am happy to update whoever reads my blog that Nanay is doing well and is on her way to complete recovery  soon (that's my faith telling me!)

She can now sit, stand-up and walk on her own albeit very slow, but that's quite an improvement right? She also eats now on her own, before, we have to feed her pa eh. and another good news is that her appetite is back and that she talks a lot now. 

So glad to have come and visit her and see for myself how she is improving. Never mind the extra expenses we have to incur to be with her. It's worth every penny.

At least when I go out and do ministry this coming week-my mind is at peace knowing she is doing very well. Again, thank you everyone for your prayers . I can very well say God heard us all. :)

Change

Sometimes change comes in the most unexpected way and time. Most often than not, it caught us unguarded. Like what happened to our family recently. Now we are coping up with big changes and adjustment as we take care of our Mom.

She is now finally home. We are very much grateful for that. But life is never the same again for her. As of today, she still can't sit or get up, we have to feed her, bathe her because she can't do it on her own for now.

I am positive she will recover and that she'll soon be back to doing the things she used to do. My Mom is a very strong woman, she's one tough lady and seeing her that weak and dependent to us for everything makes my heart break.

But as I have said, I am positive that this is not permanent and that another (but this time GOOD) change is coming our way soon. Again, thank you everyone for the support, for the help (financially, physically and emotionally)  and for all the PRAYERS sent our way as we go through this.  I hope I can give you all a gift like maybe best beginner acoustic guitar but for now all I can give you is my sincerest thanks and appreciation.

Hoping all is well with you. Blessings!

Exhausted

Hi everyone.

I'm back here in the office after staying at the hospital with my Mom. She is not out yet BUT I needed to be in the office for some important work Today is her 16th day of confinement.

I realized... staying that long in the hospital makes you feel
..frustrated
..disappointed
..exhausted

there were even times I felt very angry and I wanted to get back to that driver and hit him hard on the face. I know that won't be enough though.

My mom's recovery  is very slow, she's very weak and can't even get up from bed and sit on her own. The very reason why I am feeling all that.

There was even a night where I thought we will lose her, we can't wake her up. Praise God that she was ok after a while BUT I have never been scared in my whole life. I panicked, I cried, I prayed. Worst that I was alone with her during that fateful night.

My hopes are high though because yes, recovery maybe slow but she's recovering and improving. She can now eat full meal. She eat small portions but we make sure she eats from time to time. I know she will be discharge soon. I hope sooner than I expected.

So to be in the office now is a relief although my mind is still with her.

Please continue to pray for her. Thanks a lot.

Sleepless

for 3 nights and four days.

I was there in the hospital praying for my Nanay, crying at times. I'm back here at the office for some important office work but will be back soon to the hospital.

Nanay is out of danger already, she'll no longer undergo operation as the CT scan showed improvement. She is now awake and concious albeit she is very weak, this morning she was allowed to have oral food already.

I hope and pray she'll recover fast and that we will be discharged in the hospital sooner than I expected.

Thank you everyone for your prayers, words of encouragement and financial help. May the Lord bless you all in return.

if I could I 'll give you each one a thank you gift even a classic cort bass guitar if I can afford :)

I hope you keep on praying for my mom. God bless!!

Was sick

My body, exhausted from all the incidents on the first weekend of November gave up on me this weekend. I was not able to come to office last Friday. I had fever and is coughing like there is no tomorrow. So I was forced to get some rest. I stayed whole day at the bed and slept like I haven't slept for months.

And that was a good decision, otherwise It could have been worse.

Water is my best friend these days and citrus fruits ( I avoided antibiotics and other meds)

I feel a lot better now though the cough and colds are still with me :(

But  I hope they'll go away soon. 

Hello November

You welcomed us with a tragedy and pain and so much emotional burden.

I hope it ended yesterday as we said our final goodbye to my newest niece whom the Lord has taken away even before she could see the light in this world.

We all waited for her, her Mom was so excited to meet her and so was her Dad..

Us, her aunt and uncle were also excited to see her. And when it's already time to finally meet her, she decided to go...

And yesterday, we finally said goodbye.

So please dear November, there are still 24 days remaining. I hope and pray it would be fill with happenings and memories and joys so we can easily forget your first few days.

Oh my Saturday

I think I just had my most productive Saturday last weekend. Here's why..

Woke up before 8:00 AM-went to Bambang (Rizal Avenue,Manila) to canvas and buy some stuff for my boss, we were there until 11 AM.

Before 12 noon we are already on our way to RAON (Quiapo, Manila)  to buy things for my husband's project ( box/carrier for his guitar effects)

Around 1:30 PM we had lunch at the food plaza of Save More Sta Ana, Manila and waited for 2PM to finally meet a N@wie and close a transaction from our garage sale page :D Nice meeting you sis!

After that, we went to San Juan and brought the stuff I bought from Bambang to my boss' house. Oh yes, it's Saturday and I am working :D bait ko no? hehe!!!

We were home around past 3 in the afternoon. BUT WAIT, our day is not over yet...with all that lakad we made..I still have much energy (so unusual of me)..

So while the husband started on his project..I went down and did the laundry (I also washed my bags and shoes and slippers) I was done at around 6PM (bilis ko lang naman maglaba)

We had  a quick snack then we prepared ourselves na and went to church for our 6th day of prayer and fasting. We finished at around 9 PM, went straight to my sister's house to pick up Rachel (my niece) who will be sleeping over with us.

Finally home at around 11 PM. Was in bed before 2AM of Sunday.

Such a full Saturday no? Oh..if you think we had Sunday to rest, nope..because we woke up even earlier as it is church day :)

But I don't complain though..I am actually amazed of the energy I had these last few days. I think the supplements I am taking are already working :)

Think happy thoughts. Joyful memories. Blessings.

That's what I've been telling my self this morning after some ugly thoughts crept into my mind and slowly making me mad and sad.
But I refuse to give in so I've been repeating this over and over again

Think happy thoughts. Joyful memories. Blessings.

I have also been  telling my self that friendship and good relationship are more important than money. And that the small sacrifices you are doing for the sake of friendship is nothing because you have to value people more than material things.

But along with the recent happenings I am also resolved not to involve money anymore so as not to mess things up.

Anyways, today,  I'm going to ..

Think happy thoughts. Joyful memories. Blessings.

 

Everyone is entitled to their own opinion

I have been blogging since 2005 and the very purpose of this blog really is to write my thoughts and my opinions and I can't see anything wrong with it. I said that when I started blogging that I'll write anything under the sun, like southport nc real estate listings or homes or just any nonsense /silly things I can write about.

 I know sometimes I write too much with emotions (talk about oversharing) but I think it's why I created this blog eh, for me to be an outlet of what I really feel. Never in my wildest dream that I thought I would be in trouble with what I write (because again they are all my personal views and opinion) now if it doesn't fit with anyone's opinion it's not my problem anymore. As long as I don't write with maliciousness and with pure intent to harm anyone.

 EVERYONE IS ENTITLED TO THEIR OWN OPINION AND EVERYONE HAS THE RIGHT TO LAUGH AT IT 

 I hope you get it. You can laugh on things I write, you can mock me, you can criticize me but you don't have the right to say that I should STOP writing (again, please take note that whatever I write is my own personal views and opinion)

Sorry, I've been quoted kc and mentioned my blogs (thanks though for reading them- they add to my clicks!) but please when you go here and read bring your open mind. Thank you!

God wants me to know..

On this day of your life, Raquel, we believe God wants you to know...
... that you can only give away what you already have inside yourself.

True giving happens when you are overflowing from the inside, and cannot help but share. When there is so much love within you that it has to flow to others or you would burst open. There is no thinking involved, no willpower in such sharing. It just flows out. If you have to force yourself to be kind, to love, to feel compassion, you've missed the first step of filling in your own Self with these emotions.

Sicko

I am sick and I know I need to rest but poor me is in the office and working hard..well, not really working hard as you can see I am still typing away and making blog post from here.

It's been a while since I made a real personal post here and this blog is meant to be my personal blog. I don't want to make excuses though. I know I am just plain lazy but then again I guess there is nothing quite interesting happening in me personally except for that wonderful meeting with old friends from Cabanatuan last weekend.

It's nice to see them after three long years..gosh they are all still beautiful and skinny! So what happened to me? I look so big ( gee..I am big!!).

Howell, it somehow challenged me to at least start losing weight for the nth time and make sure that when I see them again I will not be that big na!! promise!!

On emotions

It has been quite sometime since I last wrote a piece of my emotions here. I guess it's because I was traumatized (well, not really traumatized just can't find the exact word for it) with what happened before, so I limited my entries with quizzes and stuff that are friendly. hehe! But nope I am not going to write something about issues I have written here before. I considered it over and done and as I've said I am not going to write about it anymore.

So where am I heading to?

Honestly, I do not know. I know I have something to write. I have to express this emotion I have right now and I know this should be the right outlet too because this is my personal blog.

It's just that I don't want to write something I will regret later. I learned it the hard way.

So pardon me if this blog is full of nonsense crap.

I hope I find my self writing my feelings again soon.

Eheads at summer

Pinanood ko ang I-witness kagabi, kahit medyo late na ang timeslot nila. Kasi they featured Eraserheads and of course I am a fan. Si husband nanood din kahit hindi naman niya masyado gusto and banda ng masa pero mukang na impluwensiyahan ko na. (hehe!)

Sayang, di ko napanood ang Final set concert nila. For sure matagal na ulit itong mauulit or baka hindi na maulit pa. Di naman masyado nagsalit si Ely Buendia sa interview, he’s really a man of few words. Nungtinanong sha if ano ang ibig maalala nya pag binanggit ang eraserheads medyo matagal siyang di naksagot tapos ngumit sabay sabi na “banda ko dati”. O di ba?

Napapansin nyo ba? Grabe ang init ngayon, ditto sa office dati pag naka full ang gaircon kailangan ko ng mag jacket or else manginginig ka sa lamig, ngayon umaga pa lang naka full na ang aircon at ok lang sha sa akin, kaso paglabas mo ng office eto na, sobrang init lalo na sa tirahan naming eh siempre di naman kami naka aircon dun. 2 electric fan kulang pa.

Summer is here and hope summer won’t stay long. Ang hirap pag masyado mainit nag panahon. Pero sana rin bago man lang matapos ang summer makapg beach naman ako. Miss ko na beach.

My realistic birthday wish list

The first one I made is really a “wish” list, I wanted to make a list that I hope to have finish by the end of my birthday month as I am sure I’ll not be able to have or do them all on or before my birthday which is only 5 more days to go.

1. I want to pamper my self, nails, hair , a spa or a massage and a facial treatment. I need that badly na kasi I look so old and I feel so ugly na.
2. A new pair of jeans
3. A new flat shoes
4. a good book to read
5. one trip to a nice restaurant with hubby of course

We are really on the tipid mode these days because of the mission’s trip so I am willing to wait. Anyways, the trip itself is a precious gift na. We’re traveling right after the day of my birthday.

Wish with me dear friends or better yet pray with me.

Whaaaat???

Didn't I just posted it's weekend?

now it's over..

hay...

Does anybody know why the weekend flies too fast? and the weekdays seems to be forever?

Anyways, just hoping this week will be very good for all of us.

I still have lot's of things to do this week about our fund raising for the Macau trip. I really hope we can have the funds ready just before the due date which is end of January.

Howell, I'm working now so I better get back to work...

if you have time..you might want to visit our ministry blog. Made to worship.

It's weekend!

And I'm loving it! why? because don't have to go to work of course and weekend means I can sleep very very late!! whoo!

If there's one in thing in my list that I think I am currently doing right now, that's the changing of sleeping habits. You see, I am trying my best to sleep as early as I can because I am trying to wake up as early as I can. But don't be fooled by me, early bed means 1:00 AM or 12:00 midnight to me. And early wake up time means 8:00 or 7:30 to me. lol

But nevertheless at least I am trying to get off the computer before 12 and hit the sack but I just can't sleep yet so I'll turn on the TV to get me to sleep. weird me.

Anyways, tonight i think we will be watching a movie I forgot the title so I'm going now. maybe I will still get back to blogging later after the movie.

happy weekend everyone!

The List

Personal things I would like to accomplish this year, this is not really a new year’s resolution, just wanted to write what I would want to do for this year. And will get back to this list from time to time to check If I’m doing/accomplishing them. You wanna bet what’s on the top of my list?

1. Lose weight – at least 2 lbs each month so by the time of J-mie’s wedding I’m 20 lbs lighter already. I set the goal for only 2 lbs para it’s doable. I’m just being realistic. Kasi what’s the sense of setting it at like 2 lbs per week if you know you can’t do it naman di ba?

2. Eliminate 1 credit card debt – Ugh I know I can do it. Looks like hard but with determination I will do it. I’m still looking for strategies and tips but I guess the first thing to do is stop using it. Cut it now Rocks.

3. Change sleeping and waking up time – This I am not so sure If I can do it. But I just wish I could change that bad habit of mine, sleeping so late thus waking up so late.

4. Finish the wedding photo book/album – MY GOSH!!! 3 years in the making, don’t you think it’s time to finish it? Hehe!

5. A trip somewhere in the SOUTH of the Philippines – because I’ve been going to the NORTH for the past three years. I would love to visit Palawan soon.

That’s my top five. I’ll list down later things/stuff I want to buy for myself this year and post it too. It’s good to have a list no? Kasi you can always take a look and feel good when you see most of the items in your list may check na meaning you’re done with it.

So what’s on your list for this year?