Hello Good News

"selfie with one of her favorite apo"

Just got back from the province this morning, finally after more than two weeks, I was able to visit Mom again. It was a holiday yesterday and I took the opportunity to go home and visit her just in time before we go to Cebu this weekend.

And yes, I am happy to update whoever reads my blog that Nanay is doing well and is on her way to complete recovery  soon (that's my faith telling me!)

She can now sit, stand-up and walk on her own albeit very slow, but that's quite an improvement right? She also eats now on her own, before, we have to feed her pa eh. and another good news is that her appetite is back and that she talks a lot now. 

So glad to have come and visit her and see for myself how she is improving. Never mind the extra expenses we have to incur to be with her. It's worth every penny.

At least when I go out and do ministry this coming week-my mind is at peace knowing she is doing very well. Again, thank you everyone for your prayers . I can very well say God heard us all. :)

Change

Sometimes change comes in the most unexpected way and time. Most often than not, it caught us unguarded. Like what happened to our family recently. Now we are coping up with big changes and adjustment as we take care of our Mom.

She is now finally home. We are very much grateful for that. But life is never the same again for her. As of today, she still can't sit or get up, we have to feed her, bathe her because she can't do it on her own for now.

I am positive she will recover and that she'll soon be back to doing the things she used to do. My Mom is a very strong woman, she's one tough lady and seeing her that weak and dependent to us for everything makes my heart break.

But as I have said, I am positive that this is not permanent and that another (but this time GOOD) change is coming our way soon. Again, thank you everyone for the support, for the help (financially, physically and emotionally)  and for all the PRAYERS sent our way as we go through this.  I hope I can give you all a gift like maybe best beginner acoustic guitar but for now all I can give you is my sincerest thanks and appreciation.

Hoping all is well with you. Blessings!

Torn

Between going back to the hospital to be with my Mother or stay here in Manila the whole week to finish some work.

Honestly my heart wants to be at her side and it is painful for me not to see her and see for my self how she is progressing. Although I get updates from my sister from time to time, it is still a lot different when you are there yourself.

I wish I am just being made to choose stanton dj mixers at guitar center because that is a lot easier.

I know I am being redundant but please once again I am asking for your prayers. Let us all storm the heaven for her speedy recovery.

Thank you again very much from the bottom of my heart.

Exhausted

Hi everyone.

I'm back here in the office after staying at the hospital with my Mom. She is not out yet BUT I needed to be in the office for some important work Today is her 16th day of confinement.

I realized... staying that long in the hospital makes you feel
..frustrated
..disappointed
..exhausted

there were even times I felt very angry and I wanted to get back to that driver and hit him hard on the face. I know that won't be enough though.

My mom's recovery  is very slow, she's very weak and can't even get up from bed and sit on her own. The very reason why I am feeling all that.

There was even a night where I thought we will lose her, we can't wake her up. Praise God that she was ok after a while BUT I have never been scared in my whole life. I panicked, I cried, I prayed. Worst that I was alone with her during that fateful night.

My hopes are high though because yes, recovery maybe slow but she's recovering and improving. She can now eat full meal. She eat small portions but we make sure she eats from time to time. I know she will be discharge soon. I hope sooner than I expected.

So to be in the office now is a relief although my mind is still with her.

Please continue to pray for her. Thanks a lot.

Sleepless

for 3 nights and four days.

I was there in the hospital praying for my Nanay, crying at times. I'm back here at the office for some important office work but will be back soon to the hospital.

Nanay is out of danger already, she'll no longer undergo operation as the CT scan showed improvement. She is now awake and concious albeit she is very weak, this morning she was allowed to have oral food already.

I hope and pray she'll recover fast and that we will be discharged in the hospital sooner than I expected.

Thank you everyone for your prayers, words of encouragement and financial help. May the Lord bless you all in return.

if I could I 'll give you each one a thank you gift even a classic cort bass guitar if I can afford :)

I hope you keep on praying for my mom. God bless!!

Prayer request

Please, am asking for your prayers. My Nanay (mom) was hit by a truck last Saturday, she's in the hospital now and under going a lot of tests. Her head suffered the most injury, there is blood in the brain which is bad.

Please pray that she'll be alright, that there will be  no need for operation and for her brain to function normally soon.
 
 Thank you.

Life is full of surprises

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Really, life is full of surprises.

However, I wish  it was more of a pleasant surprise, like a increase of pay, an early Christmas cash bonus perhaps, or a gift check for a set of jewelries from Reeds.com for Michael Kors jewelry. Or maybe a trip abroad? You know those good and pleasant surprises that  we once in a while hope for?

But nah...

Unfortunately, I was once again surprised with a bad news last Monday. Mother was rushed to the hospital, needed blood transfusion. Upon hearing that, I was once again restless and worried. I found my self right there beside my mom in the hospital bed that Monday night and what a sigh of relief as I spoke to her and assured that she's gonna be okay.

Well, she's  now ok after 3 bags of  blood and four days in the hospital. She is now home and recovering.

I am now back in the office and will catch up on sleep and rest later.

Life is full of surprises and I am hopeful that next time it visits me, it will be a pleasant one.

Going home for the holy week

It's a veeery long weekend here in my part of the world. Holy week is usually the longest holiday here. Four days off for me :) Next to Christmas season, this time of the year is my second favorite.

So we are going home in the province. It's pain in the ass to get seats in the bus  as most people who resides  here in Metro Manila are going back home to their provinces.

It's this time also that how I really wish we have our own family car, we will be bringing home my father's wheel chair  which is kinda bulky and heavy (nah..we don't need to find car lifts for that) . But sigh, I can imagine how hard it will be for us tomorrow, good thing that wheel chair will fit in the bus' compartment but still..a lot easier if you travel with your own car right?

Anyways, even if we have to wait for hours and hours just to get into the bus,we will still go home. I don't want to miss this because all of my siblings are going home including all their kids. Sure that is chaos but it is also fun.

I'm excited and I can't wait to spend time with them.

But honestly, I am more excited of  being away from the office for four days. hehe.

How do you spend your holy week out there in your world? I hope you get time to rest and to reflect too.

Enjoy!

My father's hats

My father loves hat, he has quite a few (I think less than 20 pieces in our home) most of it I bought for him on our trips and others are also pasalubong for him by relatives and friends. Whenever I go out of town ( and on my few out of the country trips) I made it a point to buy him a hat from there.

I wish I can still buy him more hats in the coming years. I'm sure he would love to have one from  Tim McGraw Cowboy Hats. Most of his hats are cowboy hats eh so I'm sure he'll love it. 

But more than the hats, I wish for him good health and complete healing. I wish we can have more Christmas and new years with him.

Oh well, this Christmas I'll give him one more nice hat :) I hope it will make him happy.

Hello November

You welcomed us with a tragedy and pain and so much emotional burden.

I hope it ended yesterday as we said our final goodbye to my newest niece whom the Lord has taken away even before she could see the light in this world.

We all waited for her, her Mom was so excited to meet her and so was her Dad..

Us, her aunt and uncle were also excited to see her. And when it's already time to finally meet her, she decided to go...

And yesterday, we finally said goodbye.

So please dear November, there are still 24 days remaining. I hope and pray it would be fill with happenings and memories and joys so we can easily forget your first few days.

Mom's birthday

I almost forgot.

My Nanay is turning 73 on the 1oth of this month. Of course,  I want an intimate celebration for her, just us the whole family gathering together (with some special foods for her) and I plan to do this on Sunday, the 14th as this will only be the time that we are all available.

I don't have gift for her yet. But I really want to show her how much I appreciate her and how much I love her, sometimes I think she feels she's being set aside (due to the condition of my father-which we prioritize now) so on her birthday I want her to know that she is just as special as my Tatay is and that I love her very very much.

Now, onto the gift.

I wish I could give her all the desire  of her heart, like home renovation and such but not yet now, someday I promised I shall give her that, maybe I could even give her a house with a swimming pool (that will justify why I am looking into discount pool pumps now) hehe!

For now, I can only give her a small amount of cash and I know naman na she's happy with it :) Including our payer for her god health and long life.

Sleepless weekend

The long weekend was a sleepless weekend for me. Especially last Sunday night. A lot of things are running endlessly in my mind and most of them made me worried again. Sigh. Why I can't I just be not a worrier?

My father went back to the doctor last Friday and we found out he has Pneumonia and that if the antibiotics she prescribed didn't do it's job, we have to confine him in the hospital which we don't want to happen.

He's medication and doctor's consultation are  now taking a toll in our finances and I'm afraid we can not afford a hospital confinement.

That's why the weekend is a sleepless weekend for me. I find my self Friday night scouting for generic medicines which comes cheaper rather than the branded ones. (how I wish I was just scouting for cheap hearing aids or cheap gadgets rather than medicines.) 

I hope my father gets well so soon and really really well. I know my worrying doesn't help but I can't help it until he gets clean bill of health. We will go back to his doctor on Thursday and I hope he'll be fine then.

A flood and a funeral

Much as I don't want to soak my feet in the flood water ( am so afraid of leptospirosis) but we did  last Saturday for a cousin's funeral.

If you notice, almost everyone is wearing shorts and shirt, no one wore a dress and Stetson Fedora Hats. In other countries I know people wear these beautiful hats on funerals and weddings, I wish we are a hat country :) 

 Anyways, good thing the recent storm didn't bring more rain. We were relieved and according to my cousins, there is no more flood water in their area :)  

My 2011 Christmas

Belated Merry Christmas everyone!!

How's your Christmas?I hope you all had a very meaningful and happy Christmas with your love ones.

I spent mine with my parents and my siblings family :) Went home in the province on the 24th.

It was chaos having them all around but it's alright because without them Christmas is empty and sad.  It was a delight to see them singing Christmas carols with all their make shift instruments :)

                                                                 Dividing the money after :D

oh...food abounds and seems to be tempting me since the 23rd and I finally gave in yesterday. I just can't resist my mothers cooking :) I know am bad but hey it's Christmas! I deserve a break right? Don't worry though because I know I'm still on track and won't be resorting to weight loss pills soon.

The husband went to market with me and my mom :D

 And this girl loved her gift from me so much!!

It was a simple celebration but we were all happy and thankful that we are healthy and were together :)

Missing my parents

I don't know but I am suddenly missing my mom and again, last night when we were in the hospital ( my brother in law underwent an operation) there was this man that has similar features with my father. White hair, big tummy and the look in his face. Right there and then I wished I could be with my parents and hug them.

I am such a baby I know but who wouldn't if you are the youngest in the family. I was a typical daddy's little girl (only am not little anymore).

I had a hard time separating with my parents. When I was in college, I was one of the few who didn't live in the city where my school was because I can't for the life of me live a normal life without my parents.

And even now, when I go home and visit them I still sleep besides them :)

What I am now, I owe it to them. My mother is indeed my first teacher, I remember years before I started going to school, she already taught me my ABC's. And when I entered first grade, my teacher was amazed that I could read words already.

I'm missing them much. I wish I can go home soon and spend time with them.